Today I wanted to rant a little about what I do. I remember years ago I felt so hopeless with myself. I was without a style and quite honestly like most artists I wasn't born with a talent superior to any other person. Art is difficult for everyone in all sorts of ways. My roommate's at the time collaged their own little logo that said "art is hard". It amused me to see it everyday. It was reassuring to read it and even more so that my incredibly talented friends struggled as much as I did. Here's a poorly lit photo of it in our sophomore dorm.
Every now and then I do have to remind myself that im supposed to fail and not everything will turn out ok. I've avoided collaging for this reason. I used to have the same problem with watercolor but practicing daily has made me arrogent. I also need to remember that as much as I love watercolor i am no longer a watercolorist. Every illustration I've done is only 75% at most. They all have collage you just gotta look. This past weekend I tried forcing my abilities out with no real luck. Everything seems mediocre, rushed, even sloppy.
Its funny in a way. I always thought finding your style was the difficult part but in reality I was given a style that is too advanced in what im capable of. Here are a few pieces that hid from me. The spider was a twin piece to my wolf. The very first of their kind when I was a junior in school. The others all done within the year. My friend chris done yesterday.
I'll still be collaging away. I wont be happy about it but I guess it's all a learning experience one way or another.